We've had a great spring. We've spent a lot of time together and have enjoyed all the time we got together. We've had some bad news and have had to re-evaluate things. Chris has been looking for a possibility of a second job in case we can't make it through the summer on his paycheck from his current job. Mandy's been making new friends and is always grateful for the friends that we've both already made.
It's been beautiful around here, it's already started to get hot, we have broke 90 degrees F, but then a cold front will move through and Mandy will sleep amazing. Unfortunately this last cold front had a freeze snap with it so many people lost their hard-worked gardens!
I've had a lot of time to think, and have been progressing on my research slowly but surely. I find it interesting the puzzle pieces that you brain puts together when you're trying to fall asleep. They may be simple things but they seem like way more complex matters until you figure it out. FYI 1 X 10^6 is equal to 10 X 10^5 NOT 100 X 10^5, that's what I figured out last night. I've had some very clear thoughts, I have been really focused on finishing school since I am feeling ready to be done. I realized today that I just need to focus on what I'm doing and enjoying it instead of focusing on finishing. I need to not be envious of other people, their lives are different than mine and we won't be sad to stick around Lubbock for a little bit longer. When it's time for me to get a job I believe that the right job will come along, so there's no reason for me to be worried about getting there!
I've had people that I didn't expect express to me this week that they're grateful for me, appreciate me, are sad that I won't be spending time with them this summer, etc. and it's done wonders for lifting my mood. When Chris is busy working I try to keep busy with work, but things like that always help to feel loved and needed when I can't necessarily get that from my husband (by no fault of his own).
I'm still dealing with the loneliness of a Friday night at home alone. During the week it doesn't bother me much because I've kept busy at night cooking, keeping the kitchen clean, and meal planning, but the weekends always hit me in a different manner.
I'm always grateful for my girlfriends that help me get through the tough times, who celebrate with me in the exciting times and share with me in all. Now I just need to figure out how is the best way to express that I love spending time with all of them even something as silly as sitting on the couch in sweats and that getting out of the house when I'm alone is pretty much the only thing that keeps me from going crazy. I don't have money to spend but I love going on walks, painting (houses or toes), cooking, watching movies, and doing crafty things and I'm not sure that people know that about me.
I think this all comes from spending so much time with my family growing up and being so far from them now makes our friends our family now so I desire to spend as much time with each of them as possible.
In the end I love all my friends and I love to spend as much time as possible with them and I'm still learning how to handle alone time as a married woman.
XOXO
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